Elizabeth Lawrence

                                              

                                                           Where are you Pops and Moms?

I'm just so missing you both terribly Pops and Moms... needing to talk to you... please comfort me... I love you Pops... I love you Moms...

I don't know why I am feeling this way... sad...uncertain but aware and awake. I wanted to see my Moms and my Pops but I know that the only thing I can do right now is to talk to them... right here from where I am.

Where are you Pops and Moms? Can you hear me? I need you right now. Oh, I'm just so alone right now... really needing to see you and perhaps a little longer.

I know. I know. How can I not know? You're gone. You're not here anymore. But I do know that you are here with me right now, at this moment. I can feel your presence, you are both watching me from where you are right now. How I wished I can touch you, hug and kiss you. Oh, I miss you so much... I cannot stand it...

Why did you have to go so soon? You never told me that. I was not prepared for that and I don't think I would ever be. I'm having a difficult time accepting that you were gone... I mean... gone forever...

Sometimes I wonder if you were roaming around here... in my room or where ever I go. I'm sure you do and keeping an eye on me... But why can't you show yourselves to me?

I would not be afraid... I promise. You know I am a strong woman and nothing really scares me and you know that too, right? So, why not show yourself to me?

I can't just live on your memories. They hurt so much. I still could not cope with those sad situations nor can I even think of forgetting them either... oh dear Lord... No Way!

Pops, Moms, I'd like to let you know that I am really, really sorry for the hurt and pain I have caused you especially when I was growing up and being disobedient to you. I am so sorry that I've never got a chance to apologize to both of you when you were still with us. I never knew how hard it must have been for you. but you just kept your patience and still took care and loved me just the same.

You never changed the way you made me feel... so important to you and a very special child. You taught me valuable and immeasurable things that made me who I am today. You were so certain and definitely patient in molding me to become and thus developed a character of honesty, integrity and responsibility... just like both of you.

Oh, where would I be without you? What would I be in the process of my growing up if not for your constant vigilance and tirelessly supporting me in every aspect of my life?

I never knew that life can be that unpredictable... not this way anyway... full of surprises although I love surprises... good ones... great ones... magical ones.

Pops, Moms, I love you so dearly and I miss you so much. Come and visit me sometimes and longer. I'll be waiting for you...

Until then... and please give my love to God. I do love Him too...

Can't wait to talk to you again. Bye for now...